Thank you. :)

The best part about being at the “right age” is knowing how my life worked out in spite of the difficulties that came. Of course, there's a lot more living to go through, but there isn't much doubt that I can survive since I have God, Family and Friends... i have reached this 18th chapter of my life, and I know i still have lots of decision to make. this would be the start of setting further my goals and plans. well, it's not been an easy life, but looking back i found myself stronger than before. in my 18 years, i learned and treasured a lot of things, things that can never be replaced with anything in this world. I've gone through roads that were too bumpy for me to be calm, too slippery for me to be stable, too muddy for me to move and even too broken for me to pass through. Sometimes i would find myself in the edge of my dreams, I would try to move my foot forward, but i would be tangled up in fear. A lot of times i wanted to quit and give up, but there was this hope that never left me. i would cry for a while but there would always be something that would tell me to wipe my tears and keep going.

Everything that happened before mostly made me who i am now. Life is a changing process. You just have to choose to change for the better, or for the worse. As one ages, a lot of responsibility will eventually pop out, and will always need extra effort than what we did before.

I just want to say thank you to my Mom and Dad, for giving their best to raise my sister and me. I thank them the most for sending me in a good school and never failed to provide my needs.Wag na kayo magtampo minsan kung di ako nagsasalita. hahaha inaaalala ko lang mga sinaulo kong bones.?? :)) at kung minsan sa kwarto agad derecho ko kasi sa bahay lang talaga ako nakakapagpahinga after those long lectures, dont worry di ko naman kayo kinakalimutan :) I WANT (more) APPLE! :> hahaha :)

I thank you, my FATTY sister for always being there, for staying sweet to ate even if her temper is always high. bipolar lang talaga ate mo minsan. hahaha :)

I thank the Valerio clan, for setting up a surprise party for me, Lolo, Uncle Papoy, Ate Vic, Auntie Ninang and Uncle Troy.
Thank you Auntie ninang for being there since i was born, for reminding me of my duties and reminding me to stand firm on God's plan for my life.

Thank you Uncle Troy for treating me like your own daughter, and all those days when you let nicole and i be with your family to the mall every saturday and even care to give us money to buy new clothes :)
Papoy, thank you for being a cool uncle, ikaw lagi yung bagets na uncle. hahaha. naaalala ko noon, magkalaban tayo sa playstation and computer. thank you for being jolly and the life of the family :)
Ate vic, i will never forget, when we watched Tarzan with papoy noon, first time ko makanuod sa sine! hahaha thank you for being there if i need someone to talk to. I've been open to you in all things and i thank God for that :)
To Janna dear, thank you sayo, aking lokaret na pinsan. hahaha. You know that nicole and i treat you as our own sister na. I'm always here for you, pag may umaaway sayo alam mong i would catch a grenade for yaaa. hahahaha! :))
Yesha, ZK and Kc, i always look forward to see you pag uuwe na ko galing dorm, nawawala ang stress ko lagi pag nakikita and nayayakap ko kayo :) thank you for being sweet to ate. :)
to my KUYAPUU- :) alam mo namang career na career ko ang pagiging bunzoi mo :) Thank you so much :) :*

Thank you, Ricaplaza clan. :) sana may reunion na darating :) miss ko na kayo. :) Thank you kay nanay, di niyo nakakalimutan ang birthday ko. kahit malayo nagagawa niyo paring tumawag at magpadala ng suman and sampalok! :)

THANK YOU FBC FAMILY! :> sobra kayo ha! :) sa mga nagprepare ng surprise party thank you so much :) To my kuyas and ates who did a video for me :) :* and sa mga nagpunta sa party thank you, your mere presence completed my day. HAHA! :) thanks din sa mga gifts niyo :*

Kit, Athena,James and Arrianne, thank you, naiyak talaga ako nung nakita ko kayo,HAHAHA. Miss you guys, thanks sa pagpunta :) i hope we can gala gala again this summer! :) Iba talaga pag Highschool friends. <3> To all those who greeted me thank you, :) sa mga nagtext and tumawag thanks din :)

To my college friends! Ofcourse i will not forget you guys! :) Thank you, especially PT-23, The big big group and my girl, NINA<3> DIANNE, i miss you, thank you :) :* ian, sam, jake and migo... thank you :)

Rigel, Nung una talaga di kapanipaniwala e. abnormal ka kasi! :))) well, yeah as what we've told each other, enjoy the friendship, studies first and let God do what's next. alam mo na lahat yan, hahaha ilang bes na napagusapan. :D and now, Naalala ko lang bigla ang kantang pinakinig mo sakin: :))))))

Nung una kitang nakilala di man lang kita napuna, Di ka naman kasi ganoon kaganda, di ba? Simpleng kabatak, simpleng kabarkada lamang ang tingin ko sa'yo. Di ko talaga alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito! Ako'y napaisip at biglang napatingin, di ko malaman kung anong dapat gawin! Dahan dahang nag-iba ang pagtingin ko sa 'yo, Gumanda ka bigla at ang mga kilos mo'y nakakapanibago! Napansin ko na lamang na nalalaglag ang aking puso. Bad trip talaga! naiinlab ako sa 'yo!

*hahahaha! ako na di maganda NOON! :)) thank you for being a safe space to share my deepest thoughts and needs without the worry of being judged or criticized. thank you for being that someone with whom i can relax and just hang out with, have fun and share my innermost thoughts, lofty and noble goals, or my hopes, joys, and fears. :D

AND OFCOURSE, how can i forget my first love? God, thank you for everything that you gave. I ask you God, for strength that I may achieve all things that’s possible. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed. :) i love you, Lord. i'm living my life for You. ou’re the one who looks at me And sees what I was meant to be more than just a beautiful mess
- from the song You are everything by Matthew west.

A man must be prepared to give 100% to his purpose.




Everything that I can’t believe is happening
You’re standing right in front of me
With arms wide open
All I know is
Every day is filled with hope

What can i say? I'm bored.

LIFE?

You never really know what's gonna happen.
Unexpected things makes you crazy.
Feelings do change, for the better?
Opposites attract, just like magnets.
Two DIFFERENT worlds.
SMILE!!!!!!!!! :)
There is no one else for me, none but JESUS.
Ohh, it's the stars! :D :D :D
....and I need better Friends.
Cmon' and let's have a journey.
Just let it be. Because if it's meant to be, it will be.
Right Decisions, Right Path.
just not in the perfect situation.

.....Lord, what's happening? all i'm doing now is trusting and waiting for your plan.

Someone asked me : Why don't you have a boyfriend? wala bang nagkakagusto sayo?

lol. yeah. wala nagkakagusto sakin ata?lol. but the thing is i don't entertain someone who doesn't deserve my worth and someone na "dumating lang bigla". at this age, i am old enough to be aware of the suffering and loneliness that "fake love" may bring.

My standards won't change. I'm more of for the serious type of relationships.

My duty now is to study and to be prepared for my future. being prepared in a relationship involves fixing myself;my attitude and my way of thinking. For when the right time and person comes, He wont suffer any bad thing about me. :) to the one who asked this question, if you have known me before, I'm not that kind of girl anymore, i am Changed by God:)

God told me....

i should not worry with the things that will happen in the future. coz God told me that the perfect timing is in His hands
i should stop thinking what's wrong with me, because God told me that He created me for a purpose
i should not condemn myself why i reached this far because God told me that He knows every blessing that He gives.
i should not be affected with the things that they say about me coz God told me that this is only a challenge and i should be able to make it because

You were given this life because i have PLANS for you.- God

you know what? God told me all of these. I have always been amazed with His POWER. He hears my prayers then He immediately answers. How great is the Father's love for us! He uses many things and people to help me grow with my Christian life. I know sometimes i forget some of His promises when i enter a tragedy. But do you know what's the amazing part? He really has this "perfect timing thingy". He'll let me cry all of my burdens first, then He will make me remember all of His promises by telling me to read the bible. and when problems are about to rush again, i am now more stronger and i already know what to do when this unexpected things happen.

" Doing something wrong is kinda like tying your shoes to each other. Seems funny at the time but not a smart decision. You try to move on and walk but you fall because you have that knot bringing you down. The more you try to struggle and walk, without untying that knot, the tighter, harder and worse it becomes to go back and fix it. If you don't solve your problem and fix your knots, you're never going to be able to walk on."

The Best Thing.

"I will trust Him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He does nothing in vain."-John Henry Newman

i was caught by this quote. isn't that true? even though he is in trouble, he continues to serve God. well, i want to share what i think about my personal struggle like this man.

" even if i am judged and talked by people who are just jealous and insecure, i will praise God for giving me this test of faith. I'm glad to overcome it with Him and i know I'm doing the right thing"

i was always the girl who didn't want to be talked about. especially if I'm doing the right thing and they don't seem to understand. before i accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior, i am easily affected by every word they say.but until then, i seem to understand that this is an obstacle for me to finish. for sure i should expect more blabbering of people as i grow old. sabi nga nila, "mas madaming temptations kapag sumusunod ka kay God. Kasi ayaw ng kalaban na natatalo siya." syempre kasi ngayon na Christian ka na, your mind is now aware of the worldly things around you. but you know what? following God is the best thing in this world. It's the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. even if there's a lot of trials in my life, i always knew and i will always believe that God is carrying me.

Follow God, and everything will follow.<3>

The night has thousand eyes.

Where there is faith in God, there is hope.

Where there is hope, there is peace.

Where there is peace, there is FREEDOM.

I consider our church as a home. Where I find love, care, acceptance and understanding. God is really great isn't he? He has this way of changing lives of people through struggles and pain.

Well, being an older sister or older brother is a very tough thing to stand upon since the young ones look upon everything you do. You gotta have a lot of faith in God,watch every move your doing and every words you say. We've been through a trial which pain, anger and pride stood out in us.maybe God has a purpose why a small problem turned out to be a big one... i cried a lot because i am afraid that we might have this boundaries between us especially the camp is near which we need each other for it to be a great success.. as we were fixing things out, i believe God talked to me. He said,

This is a test of Faith you must overcome it.

i believe he's preparing us for the next activities in our church and for us not to be moved from the Stand we promised to God--- to lead and reach out to the younger generation.

i feel blessed. blessed that the trial was a test of faith.. that it was done by the enemy who wants us to break. this trial is made for us to OVERCOME and be more Close with our Sisters and Brothers in Christ.

There is a gift of friendship

That God has give to me,

He put you there to help me

With the things I can not see,

A friend is someone special

Who's always there for you,

In good times and in bad

A friend will see you through,

God's the one who gives us friends

This is his special gift,

Our friends are always there

When we need that extra lift

We Conquered. :)

Forgiveness is the key.

the friends we keep the longest are the friends who forgave us the most. And the essence of true friendship is knowing what to overlook.